I’m the kind of person who really prefers to look forward towards happy bright colourful days, and not backwards~ because we can’t go back to yesterday and change anything! But I’m going to step out of my comfort zone and show you a person I don’t recognize at all anymore!
Meet me, almost 10 years ago! She still loved a twirly dress, but always wore dark colours as she really didn’t want to stand out at ALL.
I used to daydream of living in a colourful house and looking and feeling like a happy walking rainbow, but I never thought that would be possible for me.
Then in 2015, I started tossing out anything black and decided to stop hiding and live my dream life instead!
These days, I don’t feel comfortable without a big puffy colourful dress and accessories and I feel like me on the inside AND outside (although I still am very shy! :))
It is amazing how much fashion affects how you feel about yourself!! If you’ve ever daydreamed about dressing a particular way, I say GO FOR IT!
Do it to make YOU happy, and no one else. Life is too short to just daydream and not act; become that rainbow! xoxo
I try my best to keep my blog and my life as upbeat and sunshiney as possible even when it’s really tough! That said, this week has been a CHALLENGING one and put my life view to the test!
We’re all at month SEVEN of the pandemic and I think it is really taking a toll on all of us lately. For me, I miss my family so much (even though they pop every couple of weeks when they pop in for groceries), work is difficult and people seem to be at each other’s throats, the news of the world is hard to watch, and I just miss having that freedom to do little things on a whim. I’ve broken down a couple of times this week ~ but then come back to reality…
I AM very fortunate (and I know others sadly aren’t in the same place).This IS temporary. We WILL be okay in the end!!
But painful weeks like this have made me truly think about all the things I am truly THANKFUL for and what brings me back to my happy place! I find it important to list out the things that brighten up my day and it doesn’t take long before it is LONG!
My cat ~ she always knows when I need an extra cuddle
Rainbows ~ they always seem to jump out at the most necessary time!
Internet friends!! <3 No matter what, they ALWAYS brighten up my day.
Creating! Shutting out the real world and being transported into a magical world of my own creative mind and seeing what comes out in yarn, felt, drawn form!
My happy little house
Positivity and happy moments! Lots of them to come 🙂
The topic for today is things that inspire me! There are so many things in the universe that fill me with enthusiasm and motivation and my mind is a *constant* kaleidoscope thinking of them all~ My teachers used to tell my parents that I was way too detached and spent too much time in my head daydreaming, almost like in another world! And they weren’t wrong! I feel drawn to fantastical worlds and feel like I’m in the process of creating one of my own~ which was the point of this blog!
I love bright rainbows, glitter, pink houses, fantasy video games, walking through plush green forests, big poofy frilly dresses, kawaii, kitschy collectables, Lolita fashion, pompoms and beads and buttons, yarn, big-eyed Blythe dolls, 80s and 90s toys, nostalgia, sugary sweets (especially that too many sweets hyper feeling!), history, animals, and bouncy positivity!
Life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows, but it can be most of the time! 🙂 I use my Pinterest here to inspire me when times get tough as it reminds me who I really am so check it out if you want a dose of bright sugary kitschy cuteness!
I found myself going deep down a rabbit hole and looking at pictures I took a couple of years ago.
The memories of this time fill me with unbelievable happiness. I spent a lot of time TWIRLING with happiness. I was literally coated in rainbows from head to toe. My house was bright and fun and I woke up every day ridiculously ENERGIZED and ready to create and spread joy. And I didn’t care what other people thought of me.
I started feeling nostalgic about the most carefree time of my life, when I really felt like ME.
Where did she go?! Why did my rainbow dull in the past couple of years?
I used to spend hours and hours staring at Pinterest, Instagram, and blogs and see other colourful folks. They were more colourful, more popular, had better pictures that other people drooled over. Then I would look at my pictures, which I initially LOVED, and then found myself picking out flaws. Does it match my grid, aesthetic, will I get enough likes, lose 10 followers, is it the perfect time, am I having TOO much fun on a work day? There are hundreds of fun pictures that I never shared because they started giving me such horrendous anxiety.
I felt like a sad cloud overcame me and I felt lost in a world of popularity and perfectionism. I decided to take a break from Instagram earlier this year because the culture was affecting me so much.
Fortunately, the Instagram break worked wonders for me! I finally had time to THINK rationally, and realized life doesn’t revolve around posting to the internet. I can have fun and be colourful without having to share it or justify what I’m doing. Posting should be a way to share your joy, not to leach joy. With that in mind, I find myself filling with happiness and colour once again!
I might return to Instagram, and just post for my OWN sake. I’ll never be the most anything. And that’s SO DARN GREAT!
This is where I vow to never let other peoples’ lives influence what I love! Don’t let a dark cloud influence you in the wrong direction. Beyourownrainbow!
Hello friends!! As usual, I’m running LATE with my posts! Despite being inside pretty much the whole time, April just whizzed by!
I really want to seem like I’m nothing but rainbows and sugary sunshine, but thought I’d do some ~real talk~ about life and all that first. I’ve been working from home for two full months now, which has been mostly great. I save at least an hour each way on the commute, which has also helped tremendously with my anxiety. But I’ve also been pulling far longer hours at the virtual office which has been some *STRESSFUL* long days. At some points I feel like I’m the edge of burning out from my job. But I’m doing my best to find cheer in little things like baking, video games, and kitty snuggles and that really helps!
Now the days are longer and brighter and I’m learning to enjoy every moment at home because life will turn back to normal. Here’s some of how I passed the time in April!
The weather has been miserable, but I still found some rainbows (under a couple of feet of snow because I put out my doormat too early!! >.<)
I also made this delicious no bake cheesecake a few weeks ago! Recipe is from Tastemade 🙂
Sugar celebrated here second gotcha day on the 18th! Look how itty bitty she was two years ago!
I decided to repaint one of the walls in my living room, because I realized it was a bit too dark for space and needed a change! Now it’s a bright and airy lighter pink! There are more options for decorating now… think I might go a bit more shabby chic… but need to find new couches that match better!
And also did some spring cleaning on my spare room! Which has now turned into a craft and toy room!
I’m still knitting my mood blanket, but it’s really hard to find yarn and other supplies (seems like everyone else has the same crafty desires)! Amazon is out of most of my colours currently, so I’ll have a lot of catch up to do later on. But I’m still enjoying it! I’m also hoping to work on some sewing projects and maybe some perler beads soon now that I have the space!
And I’ve been spending a lot of time just unwinding playing video games!
Besides Animal Crossing which takes up most of my free time, I’ve been re-exploring the world of Final Fantasy 8 Remastered (usually with a kitty right in my face :D)!
So I’m certainly not bored and looking forward to even better days ahead! 🙂
Hope you and your loved ones are well and enjoying adventures of your own!